Disappointed and in error
I was wrong. So wrong.
I haven't entirely given up—there's still a thin and unlikely hope that Ohio will come up in Kerry's favor—but it doesn't matter. This election shouldn't have been close. I woke up to election day confident and optimistic, because we Americans are ultimately sensible, open-minded, and forward-thinking, and of course we would make the right choice.
Ah, but I was wrong.
We are cowards. Fear was the trump card this time, and the Republican party played it well. They rattled the cages and warned us of terror, terror, terror, and told us the solution was to pay a toll of a few (but too many!) of our sons, a few (again, too many) of our liberties, and a lot of our money, and bomb the hell out of someone else. The Democrats ran a principled patriot against a jingoistic, xenophobic smirk, and the smirk won.
We are fools. We elected Bunning and Coburn to the Senate—people mentally unfit and dangerously deranged, but comfortably extreme in their ideology. The Republican candidate was a man who is arguably one of the worst presidents ever, with a dismal record of incompetence and failure, and a majority voted for him. Eleven states ran referendums to acknowledge the rights of gay couples, all eleven defeated by the ranks of the narrow-minded. The Democrats ran a tolerant pluralist against a religious poseur, and superficial, self-righteous faith won.
We are monsters. An unjustified, futile war…doesn't matter. Abu Ghraib…doesn't matter. Tens of thousands of dead Iraqi civilians…don't matter. Prisoners tortured and held without trial at Guantanamo Bay…doesn't matter. Throwing away two centuries worth of the world's respect for our enlightened principles…doesn't matter. A president who laughs at executions and mocks the sacrifices of our soldiers…doesn't matter. The Democratic candidated dared to say that our reputation in the community of nations mattered, and the arrogant bully won.
I fear for the future. The Republican party has established a solid base in America's strengths: fear, ignorance, and swagger. The Democrats failed to win by opposing those ugly values; will they, too, resort to pandering to them in the next election? Will the lesson they learn be that progressive ideals must be sacrificed to make political gains?
I worry about my kids, and the children of those folks in Red State America who think safety lies in blithely handing a blank check to ideologues. How much of their blood will have to be spilled in self-destructive wars? How great a burden of debt will they have to bear, in order to guarantee that today's wealthy are sufficiently comfortable? When the Supreme Court is loaded with mullahs of the religious right, what liberties will be lost to them?
I've watched this administration with increasing disgust and disbelief these past four years. No matter how this election is resolved, the most dreadful realization it has brought to me is that my country hasn't hit bottom yet.
I was wrong to think better of America. And there will be worse to come.


We did what we could my friend. Fear is a visceral motive.